Monday, March 29, 2004
The Human Side of Me
That day, I broke to tears, when students were giving me a hard time. I said "I gave myself to this class" and then cried and called for a break. BB called and we talked about it. "Your showing a human side and calling a break might have been -- paradoxically -- one of the best possible means of closure." He said crying is such a spontaneous and natural thing that you should not hold it back at all. It might help bring you closer to the rest of the students, showing that you really care about them.
Also, I am still a young woman; the society is trying to change me to a professional; but I have my vulnerable, artistic, and Bohemian sides. Life is more interesting with these sides.
What they say, "living well is the best revenge"; I am going to travel around the world and let life bloom. And I already have what other people are looking for in their entire life; and I have an engagement of hear of soul, which is much more meaningful than engagement for marriage.
Also, I am still a young woman; the society is trying to change me to a professional; but I have my vulnerable, artistic, and Bohemian sides. Life is more interesting with these sides.
What they say, "living well is the best revenge"; I am going to travel around the world and let life bloom. And I already have what other people are looking for in their entire life; and I have an engagement of hear of soul, which is much more meaningful than engagement for marriage.
Saturday, March 27, 2004
Beausoleil: Looking Back Tomorrow
Michaeal Doucet
Love Canjun music! It makes my time of solitude festive and lively. I have to remain in solitude to get things done.
My favorite song is titled "Ma Douce Amie" (My Soft Girlfiend) and the lyrics are inside.
It's a song about adieu, "Ce Serait pour la dire adieu, Que moi, je suis pare a partir".
Who separate us
Who flow underneath my eyes
This is going to be farewell, and, I am so sad to leave
Love Canjun music! It makes my time of solitude festive and lively. I have to remain in solitude to get things done.
My favorite song is titled "Ma Douce Amie" (My Soft Girlfiend) and the lyrics are inside.
It's a song about adieu, "Ce Serait pour la dire adieu, Que moi, je suis pare a partir".
Who separate us
Who flow underneath my eyes
This is going to be farewell, and, I am so sad to leave
Be Yourself
I gave myself to teaching but there are always students who just "hate" me. Read an article on my way back from Shanghai, "There is always someone who doesn't like you!"
You have to remember to be true to yourself and others, love yourself and be yourself. But you can only be an angel to some people, to people who know how to respect you and appreciate you. Therefore, just let it go. Don't hold any miseries inside you.
You have to remember to be true to yourself and others, love yourself and be yourself. But you can only be an angel to some people, to people who know how to respect you and appreciate you. Therefore, just let it go. Don't hold any miseries inside you.
Wednesday, March 24, 2004
A beautiful Song from Shanghai
那天在上海，我跟妹妹婕子逛外滩回来，有位地铁歌手在那里放声歌唱朴树的“那些
花儿”：
那片笑声让我想起我的那些花儿，在我生命的每个角落，静静为我开着
我曾以为我会永远守在她身旁，今天我们已经离去在人海茫茫
她们都老了吧，她们在哪里呀， 我们就这样，各自奔天涯
她们已经被风吹走， 散落在天涯
有些故事还没讲完那就算了吧， 那些心情在岁月中已经难分真假
如今这里荒草丛生没有了鲜花，她在曾经拥有你们的春秋和冬夏
她们都老了吧，她们还在开吗， 我们就这样，各自奔天涯
她们都老了吗， 她们在那里呀，我们就这样，各自奔天涯。拉拉拉拉拉。。， 想
她。 有些故事还没讲完，那就算了罢。。。拉拉拉拉拉。。， 想她。”
婕儿喜欢那首歌，丢给那位歌手好几块钱，“他唱得好听。”
婕儿这学期没打工，省吃俭用的，平常连三块钱的冰淇淋都不舍得买；对街头艺人
却这样大方，倒是有写象查里。
后来她常常想起呢个夜晚， 那个在外滩行走的夜晚。风冷冷地吹，婕儿跟她紧紧依
偎，她们是彼此在上海最亲的人。
花儿”：
那片笑声让我想起我的那些花儿，在我生命的每个角落，静静为我开着
我曾以为我会永远守在她身旁，今天我们已经离去在人海茫茫
她们都老了吧，她们在哪里呀， 我们就这样，各自奔天涯
她们已经被风吹走， 散落在天涯
有些故事还没讲完那就算了吧， 那些心情在岁月中已经难分真假
如今这里荒草丛生没有了鲜花，她在曾经拥有你们的春秋和冬夏
她们都老了吧，她们还在开吗， 我们就这样，各自奔天涯
她们都老了吗， 她们在那里呀，我们就这样，各自奔天涯。拉拉拉拉拉。。， 想
她。 有些故事还没讲完，那就算了罢。。。拉拉拉拉拉。。， 想她。”
婕儿喜欢那首歌，丢给那位歌手好几块钱，“他唱得好听。”
婕儿这学期没打工，省吃俭用的，平常连三块钱的冰淇淋都不舍得买；对街头艺人
却这样大方，倒是有写象查里。
后来她常常想起呢个夜晚， 那个在外滩行走的夜晚。风冷冷地吹，婕儿跟她紧紧依
偎，她们是彼此在上海最亲的人。
Tuesday, March 23, 2004
Journey to Shanghai
It was a great trip, full of adventures. My life is blessed with sincere, generous, and giving people. Shanghai is an amazing city, but too many people. It's nice to be back to my quiet green corner in Southern California. See photos at: http://www.ofoto.com/BrowsePhotos.jsp?showSlide=true&Uc=cg6dzr1.5qk0r4d5&Uy=-m4tfws&Upost_signin=BrowsePhotos.jsp%3fshowSlide%3dtrue&Ux=0
New hair, new image. 10-days, like a dream.
New hair, new image. 10-days, like a dream.
Sunday, March 07, 2004
A Chinese Song on NPR
Green Island Serenade
Moonlight sheds on this green island
That is where you are
Like a boat floating in the ocean of my heart
Let the wind carry my singing to you
Slipping through the blinds on your window
The shadow of the Coconut trees can't cover my love for you
The bright moonlight shines on my heart
In this cozy night of the green island
Why you still remain silent
Moonlight sheds on this green island
That is where you are
Like a boat floating in the ocean of my heart
Let the wind carry my singing to you
Slipping through the blinds on your window
The shadow of the Coconut trees can't cover my love for you
The bright moonlight shines on my heart
In this cozy night of the green island
Why you still remain silent
Friday, March 05, 2004
See you in my dreams
Lips that once to be mine
Tender eyes that shine
They will light my way tonight
I’ll see you in my dreams
Hold you in my dreams
Even if someone took you out of my arms
I can still feel the thrill of your charms
Tender eyes that shine
They will light my lonely way tonight
I’ll see you in my dreams
Tender eyes that shine
They will light my way tonight
I’ll see you in my dreams
Hold you in my dreams
Even if someone took you out of my arms
I can still feel the thrill of your charms
Tender eyes that shine
They will light my lonely way tonight
I’ll see you in my dreams
Thursday, March 04, 2004
You are Special!
You are one of the most special people in the entire world. Whether you get it w/o a fight, or have to delay a year, or never get it there at all is a tiny drop of water compared to the ocean of joy you bring to the world and the world of wonderful experiences that has been, is, and will be your charmed life.
--From BB.
--From BB.
Wednesday, March 03, 2004
Gas Lamp Tuesday
RR and I went to Sevilla. It was a clear evening; downtown is cool and less crowded. Very few people in Sevilla but still enjoyable. My favorite Flamenco singer sang by himself. RR thanked me many times for taking him there. He felt like living in a movie; the feeling I used to have -:) We had good food and wine.
We then went to a dance place on 5th ave, Jimmy's love. Okay dance but fun.
Life is too exciting to sleep over; I got lots of things to catch up today.
We then went to a dance place on 5th ave, Jimmy's love. Okay dance but fun.
Life is too exciting to sleep over; I got lots of things to catch up today.
Tuesday, March 02, 2004
Raining Day
Love when it rains. Like last night, working at midnight and listening to the cozy rain. RR likes rain too. He resonated with my feeling about the rain. That's a good start. We are going to Sevilla tonight, for tapas and flamenco guitarists. The two musicians are the most passionate I have even seen.
"Everything will work out," RR said last night, "I have this good feeling." I like his voice; candid and down-to-earth, like my best friend. And it feels great to be the center of someone's life.
"Everything will work out," RR said last night, "I have this good feeling." I like his voice; candid and down-to-earth, like my best friend. And it feels great to be the center of someone's life.
Monday, March 01, 2004
Good bye, my love
---Excerpt from the Novel I am writing:
Toast, honey, peanut butter, apple, and strawberry ice cream. That was breakfast. BB said he will come back for Arigato, Ciao Bella, ice cream and PF. The best for the last. Good-bye makes her sad. They listened to Bon soir 100 times, "ne manger bas; Bon soir, bon soir, mon belle..." That was their song. She loves seeing BB but good-bye tears her heart apart.
They say Bon nuit to each other every night on the computer and dreamed of the special warm cuddle. BB said he has never cuddled anyone that way in his entire life.
Toast, honey, peanut butter, apple, and strawberry ice cream. That was breakfast. BB said he will come back for Arigato, Ciao Bella, ice cream and PF. The best for the last. Good-bye makes her sad. They listened to Bon soir 100 times, "ne manger bas; Bon soir, bon soir, mon belle..." That was their song. She loves seeing BB but good-bye tears her heart apart.
They say Bon nuit to each other every night on the computer and dreamed of the special warm cuddle. BB said he has never cuddled anyone that way in his entire life.
A Moment of "Chaoes"
That cool Saturday evening, we stood on the sidewalk of Mission Beach, eating Mocha Almond Fudge and watching "Chaoes". That was a silly ride, somewhat like the rollercoaster but for younger kids. Riders feel warm and fuzzy for a while and then begin to scream. It was a moment.
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